A Blast From The Past

Before and  After

While at my mothers house I found this Picture and  wow I was 18 years old. To be that young again with out wrinkles and gray hair (not saying i have a lot ) but they sure are popping out ! So here is a before and after Picture . Lords know I thought it was cute to shave my eyebrows off what was I thinking .... xoxo

My Story Not so much then but all about NOW

Hey well i can sit here and dwell and have a pity party about my past and being a big girl but all that doesn't even matter because the point is were am at today as a person ! You know in life you have stages of growth I think I have embarked on one of those stages of complete utter surrender and self acceptance.  The plus size community here on blogger and You tube has played a part in that. I have learned to fully accept my body a couple months back  I still wanted to loose weight but wanting and doing it is just 2 different things . Don't get me wrong am living a healthier lifestyle but am going to keep it real am not very active in the gym department. So until I feel the urge too get my fat ass to one am okay with being crystal.  We in life all need people to keep inspiring us  I mean we have to do the foot work but we need somewhere to get inspiration. I do my thing her on Blog and on You tube and I help inspire other women which is a blessing .But as much as you give it you also need it for yourself. Am just fully ok with who IAM ;) Now onto another subject about my love life I don't really have one . I guess this is were I fall weak and my walls are up full forced  Although I would love to have a partner I just don't want to settle I say prayers all the time and I know that Its all in gods timing but I cant expect him to fall from the sky when i go out I do have fun with my friends but i try to stay away from guys I don't no why the hell i do this its totally weird i almost sometimes feel as though i would not no what to say and that is totally out of character for me because am a pretty blunt and open person I really have no idea were am going with this .Maybe i need to do dome more soul searching And maybe be a little bit more open minded when it comes too the love department. And maybe get rid of the list I made of what am looking for  because i doubt that  I will find everything am looking for on that list I am a little picky lol  ok so thats enough of my blabber

Are you Obsessed With Appearance ????

The Purpose Driven Life

In this remarkable best-seller Rick Warren will help you understand God's purpose and plan for your life so that you can learn to live the life for which you were created. The book is divided into 40 short chapters so that it can either be read as a personal devotional or studied in a small group setting. Don't let yourself or your family and friends go without this life-transforming book! If you are feeling lost in this world and want a better perceptive i highly recommend this book  sometimes we loose are self in life  this will help you heal and give you such a outstanding perspective on life no joke its amazing and so worth the money you dont have to buy it brand new you can get it from amazon.com like i did for $3.00 i attend a bible study on Fridays and ever Friday we read from this book just a chapter which is really short we discuss what we read and  how we fell   the very first chapter i read i knew in my heart i needed more of this book !

College Books

What is the conspiracy with college books these days that the they are so darn expensive and what gets me about it is they change editions like we girl change under wear its a scam really for the greedy publishers I mean come on psychology is not going to change with in a four month period of a semester . All they do is slap a new cover on it it takes years to publish a book. So how do i deal with it when my teacher insists i need the newest edition easy i buy what I can find i don't stress my self out about it .Last semester they used the 6th edition and now the 7th so i buy the 6 you learn the same and i have passed all my classes also i just rent my books i don't bother with buy them brand new for what you will only use them for 4 months I go to book renter.com free shipping cheap books and what is even better they pay for postage when you send them back you print out the label and send them on there way so lady's save money . ;)