I decided that I would share some of most intimate feelings that am having with this whole dating thing . So when I first started dating just a couple months back i meet this guys on my way home from work ,he was with his friends goofing around i was so cranky that i just wanted to get home ,mind you I was on the bus because my car broke down and to find out that he sold his to get a new one, but back to the story they sat next to me and started craking jokes I couldn't help but laugh bunch of knuckle heads is what i thought to find out as his friend got off the bus he started to talk to me you could totally see the shyness almost for a minute I felt like i was back in high school we exchanged numbers and the rest is history, we talked and text and hung out when i was with him he was so shy he told me that i made him nervous a complete gentlemen he gave me butterflys like no other man could ever give me it was strange but , he was not very good about telling me how he felt , so it was very hard for me to figure this guy out to make a long story short he texted me this morning and told me that he was leaving to go back to the east coast to live and he just started to pour out his feeling that I was a amazing women and that he didn't want to get too close to me in fear he would fall in love and he knew in the back of his head that he was leaving soon .Why the hell did he have to go there uggggggh my heart dropped to the bottom of my dam gut . I have been dating others guys but Adrian was by far the one that i could totally see myself with and the one i was excited to talk to and now he is leaving , I guess this is the hard part of dating and i must admit that am kinda bummed out even more so with all that he told me ! So I close the chapter of ADRIAN and hope the best for him and sit here with the thought of what could have been.
We sometimes encounter people,
even perfect strangers,
who begin to interest us at first sight,
somehow suddenly, all at once,
before a word has been spoken.
xoxo- Crystal
